quis est vita?

Life..
what is it to us?
what is it to me?
do I know what life is?
what is life?

No matter how I think..
which way I try to think..
what method I try to find out..
who ever I ask from..
I don't seem to get an answer..

Maybe it is not the right..
maybe it is not the answer I am looking for..
maybe it is not how I expect it might be..
maybe I am not ready for the answer..

In my mind..
I ask myself..
who am I?
what am I living for?
how can I live my life?

still no answer for me..
I am almost giving up..
maybe not thinking about it, will be good..
maybe the answer will come to me if I don't think too much about it..
just maybe..

Not knowing...
not understanding..

I used to think that I found the person whom I can share my life with..
someone whom I can know and learn about life with..
someone whom I thought I can spend my life..
someone whom is my meaning in life..
but I guess I am wrong..

I am not that fortunate enough..
I should be content with my family and friends around..
though I know I am destined to be by myself..
I should be happy with life..

Living is just a passing phase in life..
life does not end when one dies..
life goes on even if we leave this earth..
life continues even after living..
death is not the ultimatium after all..
death is not the ending..

It is the very essence of our being that lives on..
the soul of us that brings us to places..
our thinkings that let understand more..
our minds that allows us to see more..
our emotions breathing on every feelings we experience..

30th June 2009
- M. Y. -