First realization of the year..

First post for 2014..

First realization of the year..

Some...no...majority...or rather, everybody lies, cons, cheats or plays another person out, is never true to another.
Sometimes, even your family never tells you the truth.
Sometimes, even the one whom supposed to be the closest and truest to you, lies to you..with that unchanging face, straight out lie.
Friends...what's more to say about that?
Sad to say, what more can you expect from someone whom you have just befriended for a short period.
They said that the more you knew and understood that person, you would know better..but that does not seem to be the case, sadly enough..in my life. I have to guess, even second-guess..
When you have actually trusted them enough to tell them things, which no one else knows.

I am sick of all these.
I am tired of all these people.
Of all that I have come across..
Maybe I am stupid or naive to believe in the basic good of them as a human.
Apparently, this belief or trust is not worthy of anything, enough to carry me through to the end.
Which I have to see the actual intention, motive, of their "suspicious goodness".
Selfishness...ugly side of reality behind that "smiley" mask.

*sad laughs*
Basically, of all the very best people whom I come across, of my years 3 scores and more, everybody lies..
Be it with motives or unintentionally..
Deny all you want, all you like, at some point in time, you did do it..
No matter it was a white lie, or a gray area or with bad intents.
Ultimately, it is still a lie..truly..
I am as real as you can, what you see is what you get.

I am sick of being lied to.
I am sick of being the butt of your conniving sick jokes.
Seriously..
Just leave me alone..
Lie all you want, to others..
I do not have the energy to entertain to the likes of you.
I am utterly disappointed in human.
Seems like one cannot rely on anybody else, not even the closest one, family..for truth.
Jaded? Maybe..but honestly, not really.

~ M.Y. ~
January 1st 2014

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How significant is this? Classic even, as the first post this year. Funny thought, intriguing experience/realization.