Give up..

I feel like giving up all forms of communication between human beings..

Be it social media, facebook, twitter, whatsapp, cubie..all forms of communication which others can find me.

I just want to hide myself away from everybody.

And maybe rot, rest in peace.

I do not really want to think about anything.

Especially humans and relationships between humans.

Be it friendship, family relationship, love relationship, working relationship, others.

It is getting tiring and straining in every aspects of my life.

In my mind, my soul and my physical body.

It is going beyond my control.

Feels like I am going to combust and explode any moment.

Going to freak the fucking hell of my brain.

I just want to escape to somewhere.

Be alone, by myself.

Leave everything here.

Let everything go.

Not bother or care about anything or anybody, what-the-fuck-ever.

You people can just go and do whatever you want, just do not bother me.

What is the fucking point of trying so hard in everything, every day of my life?

Nobody cares or appreciates the effort anyway.

Why am I doing things with so much effort? For myself. No. People just want things out of me.

Who am I doing these things for? For myself. No. It is out of my responsibility to do them.

I do not even want to move my mouth and talk.

~ M.Y. ~

February 21st 2014