Daily inspiration..#125..

The end of wisdom is to dream high enough not to lose the dream in the seeking of it.

~ William Faulkner

Daily inspiration..#124..

The point is not to pay back kindness but to pass it on.

~ Julia Alvarez

Want..

Wanting, wishing, hoping...

I want to open my heart and share myself with that special person. Be honest and truthful about everything, who I am, what I am, how I am. Not hiding behind any masks or facade and be who I am, I am weary of wearing the masks, all the time. I just want to be myself, truest form, uninhibited, with you. Please do not leave me unprotected and barenaked to my soul, after I have bared my soul to you. I am putting my soul in your hands.

I want to open my life up to someone else, someone who is close and true to me. Learn and experience how my decisions impact their life and my life. Making decisions together with that special someone, through life's journey.

I want to experience life through someone else’s eyes. Not just anyone, but that special someone close to my heart, who will experience life together with me. Is it you?

I want to feel and experience feelings which I never knew that they existed. I want to fall in love. I want the whole package of feelings. Happiness, pain, sadness, disappointment, ups and downs, good and bad. However, at the end of the day, you will still be there waiting for me, patiently. Telling me everything is fine and you love me no matter what. Allowing me to learn and experience, with you by my side, together.

I want to have conversations with you, that open my eyes to new ideas, gets me thinking about things differently in a whole new different way of perspectives, not just from my views but from yours as well. You intrigue me and push me forward, more than ever.

I want to create and build those inside jokes between us, where the tiniest trip of mind or reminder will bring us back to that special memory or silly moments between us which only both of us will know, all we need is just that one word and we would be on the same page. Like a special secret just between us.

I want to be with that special person who accepts me for who I am, what I am, who I will be growing in life, along with all my shortcomings, flaws, goodness and all. Someone who does not try to change me into somebody else, for who I am not and will not be. If I do change, it is from myself and for the better. Every individual person has their own weird habits and special quirkiness. It is these uniqueness which makes me love you even more.

I want mutual trust from you and me, for us. For companionship between us. For endless support between us. For friendship we create and build. For love built on friendship, between us.

I want stability between us. We can be doing things individually. When we come together, we can be doing things and spending time together. In our lives, we can be doing many things and pursuing goals on our own separately, yet we can also be spending quality time together and doing things together. Both of us have our own things and dreams going on in our lives, but when we are both together, the time is ours together. We have common goals and dreams together as one. Individual as unique separately, but bonded as one when together, like a smooth running engine together as if no missing breaks as our lives go on individually. Together as one, individually.

I want to be confided in, by that special person. It lets me feel important and trusted enough to have you seek for advice from me. It lets me feel involved in your life and different aspects in your perspectives. That somehow I can be your confidante, someone who can share your innermost thoughts and secrets, as mine to yours.

I want to share an adventure together with that special someone, you. We explore this beautiful world together, making new memories together, whereby only we can share and reminisce on as part of us.

I want to share my life, together with that special person. I want to grow in life, live life, love life together with you.

I want to share my thoughts, perspectives, thinkings, concerns, challenges, hopes and dreams in life. My deepest and darkest fantasies. Together with that special someone who can appreciate, share them with me. Be it my innermost ones buried in the abyss of my heart.

I want that look. The special one look which I know what you are thinking and want to say to me, without you saying it physically. Just our eyes contact with each other, it can make my heart excited and grow hundred times in size. The same look can make me melt like chocolate, all at once.

I want that spark. When you reach for my hand and leans in for a kiss, my blood runs overdrive and heart jumps to my throat. Words jumble in my mind and get stuck in my mouth. I can feel the chemistry runs through our vein as we touch. Connection in our minds.

I want a relationship, which is created upon many different layers, we connect on levels emotionally, mentally, intellectually and physically.

I want a relationship with happy surprises, such as flowers without reasons, a night out on a spontaneous date, a adventitious trip together.

I want a relationship which is filled with laughter and joy, where we laugh so much and so hard that it hurts, with tears rolling down our faces wildly.

I want a future, where I can see us together in our life journeys for many years to come from this moment onwards, and still feel confident and sanguine in this relationship which we have between us.

I want to feel like I matter to someone. That I am important to someone. That I belong to someone. That I can be a priority to someone. You.

I want to be with that special someone who can be cheered up by me, and me to you, as we hold each other in tears and joy. To hold each other through good and bad times.

I want to make that special someone, laugh and smile with happiness, you want to be around me, always.

I want this special person to be included in my life, and include me in yours.

I want to accept that warm bear hug, the kind which I never want to be removed from your arms ever. I want to stay there forever as long as I can.

And I want love.

I want the "forget-to-breathe heart-pulsating butterflies-flying-around-in-my-stomach cannot-live-without-you" kind of love.

Are you that special someone for me?

~ M.Y. ~

February 22nd 2014

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February 15th: This is a particularly difficult piece to write. I think it will take me sometime to complete this piece. Occupies my mind from P.

February 21st: 7 days, I am still working on it.

February 22nd: finally completed.

Give up..

I feel like giving up all forms of communication between human beings..

Be it social media, facebook, twitter, whatsapp, cubie..all forms of communication which others can find me.

I just want to hide myself away from everybody.

And maybe rot, rest in peace.

I do not really want to think about anything.

Especially humans and relationships between humans.

Be it friendship, family relationship, love relationship, working relationship, others.

It is getting tiring and straining in every aspects of my life.

In my mind, my soul and my physical body.

It is going beyond my control.

Feels like I am going to combust and explode any moment.

Going to freak the fucking hell of my brain.

I just want to escape to somewhere.

Be alone, by myself.

Leave everything here.

Let everything go.

Not bother or care about anything or anybody, what-the-fuck-ever.

You people can just go and do whatever you want, just do not bother me.

What is the fucking point of trying so hard in everything, every day of my life?

Nobody cares or appreciates the effort anyway.

Why am I doing things with so much effort? For myself. No. People just want things out of me.

Who am I doing these things for? For myself. No. It is out of my responsibility to do them.

I do not even want to move my mouth and talk.

~ M.Y. ~

February 21st 2014

Daily inspiration..#123..

Real courage is when you know you're licked before you begin, but you begin anyway and see it through no matter what.

~ Harper Lee

Nobody Knows It But Me..Tony Rich Project..

Nobody Knows It But Me By Tony Rich Project

Yeah, wish I told her how I felt
Maybe she'd be here right now
But instead...

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
You'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

February 20th 2014

All You Never Say..Birdy..

All You Never Say By Birdy

You've been searching
Have you found many things?
Time for learning
Why have I not learnt a thing?

Words with no meaning
Have kept me dreaming
But they don't tell me anything

All you never say is that you love me so
All I'll never know is if you want me oh
If only I could look into your mind
Maybe then I'd find a sign
Of all I want to hear you say to me

Are you uncertain?
Or just scared to drop your guard?
Have you been broken?
Are you afraid to show your heart?

Life can be unkind
But only sometimes
You're giving up before you start

All you never say is that you love me so
All I'll never know is if you want me oh
If only I could look into your mind
Maybe then I'd find a sign
Of all I want to hear you say to me
To me

All you never say is that you love me so
All I'll never know is if you want me oh
If only I could look into your mind
Maybe then I'd find a sign
Of all I want to hear you say to me
To me

February 20th 2014

Daily inspiration..#122..

You can never cross the ocean until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.

~ Christopher Columbus

Daily inspiration..#121..

The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

~ Coco Chanel

Daily inspiration..#120..

What is right to be done cannot be done too soon.

~ Jane Austen