Sad hauntingly beautiful melody..

Have been kanashii for days..
pretending that nothing has ever happened on the outside..
sadness has been entering my heart deep inside..
tears wet my face nightly just to sleep..

Time will heal all wounds, they say..
certainly do hope so..
certainly pray that to happen so..
do not what else can be done anymore..

Just like the mood the song that is playing in my ears..
demo ne..nothing will happen anymore..
ever since I know the truth..
I tried to ignore the fact..

I tried to pretend I do not know anything about it..
I tried to think that you might look in a different light..
but deep down inside, I know it will not happen that way..
I am just a friend to thee..

Therefore, I am giving up..
I have given up the hope..
I have banished the thoughts of you into the deepest valley in my heart..
pretending that I am just your tomodachi..

However, it still pains when I see you..
it makes my heart aches..
it frustrates me by the thought..
it tortures me every single second..

How I wish I can turn back the time to before I even meet you..
How I wish I can go back way before I meet you..
How I wish I can just never meet you..
Really, you have left many memories in my mind that pains me to even try to forget them..

If I can wish..
I would want to go back to before I meet you..
maybe in that way..
I won't have to be this sad and pain at this point in time..

I do not know how long I can endure this pain..
I do not know how long I can take this sadness..
before I collapse in misery..
before I totally surrender to this sadness..

Just hope that time will heal my wound..
just hope that this will let me forget all the memories with you..
just hope that time will let everything be forgotten..
just hope that time will bury this love..

- M. Y. -
3rd July 2006

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from long time ago..
the pain sadness emo seem to fitting to my current mood..
currently just a walking masked zombie..
kokoro kanashii..as one grows older, it gets harder to forget certain things, cuts deeper wounds than before, gets more painful..greater impact, makes one sadder more..and takes longer time to heal..
guess, time to get used to it..
listening to the sad hauntingly beautiful melody by Iron & Wine - Flightless Bird, American Mouth