Note to L..#7.. Let go..

I am telling myself to let everything go, of you. Let go of you.
Let go of any thoughts pertaining to you.
Let go of having a life, with you as part of it.
Let go of the thought that we might have a life together.
Let go of the thought that you might be a part of my life.
Let go of wanting you.
Let go of loving you.

I have not had these thoughts for someone for a long time.
I have not had this thought of loving someone from then till now.

Seems like there is no point left for me, after the displays of acts which I felt and seen from you. Acts and mentality of rejection and ostracism.

How befitting those strong words might be, considering the strength of the emotions.

"Would you consider dating me? and we Still maintain that friendship if things do not go as we like to?" This phrase was advised by a friend, telling me to give it a try and say to you.

Somehow I think, the answer will be more prone to "No", rather than "Yes".

Not assumption, just the gut feeling and my understanding of you, so far..

~ M.Y. ~
November 17th 2013

Note to L..#6..

It sudden occurred to me that, maybe the mindset of yours in your last relationship sets the course of the relationship.

Yes, everything was good. But you expected it to go south, somehow.

You had the mindset that it would not go well anyhow, especially towards the end of it.

Rational mind sets you on the course of destruction.

You felt something bad was going to happen. You didn't even make the bookings and apply leave for India, just because you had the feeling that the trip was not going to be realized.

This action is your logical brain aiding your heart for the subsequent due course.

Sorry, I know this whole thing does not concern me. Neither should I meddle in it. The idea itself just popped out to me in the middle of the night. I was thinking about stuff and doing my notes. Somehow it just came to me. Maybe my mind was just too involved with you. Nevertheless, none of my business ultimately.
Somehow along the way of life, you slowly got poisoned by the theory that love has become unsubstantial, unsustainable, insufficient and unnecessary in life.

Ever thought of the fact that the base of a human is emotions. Love is a source of emotions which human is sustained in majorly.

So you are somehow proclaiming that love is not really necessary in life. It is something like an extra, unnecessary part of life.

Who are we actually? Just a mankind. Just a human. Just another species on earth. Just surviving day to day on this atmosphere in this lifetime. ? Why are we even here in the first place?

Somehow I sounded like a perpetually unsatisfied, never-ending child, asking, questioning and challenging the un-norms.

~ M.Y. ~
November 17th 2013