myself..

Who am I?
I am just a regular plain Jane..
nothing fantastic about me..
nothing special about..
just me and myself, my brain, my always thinking mind..
my empty soul..

until 2 years ago..
someone special came into my life..
someone whom I thought was special..
and everything changes..
and 2 years later, everything changes again..
the only thing different this time is, I have become an empty soul..
a useless fucking soul for a whole year plus..
till today, I realized it..
I have been a wandering useless piece of shit..
worthless of nothing..

Now, I decided that I had enough of all these self pity..
self worthless skank..
where no one will care..
not even a friend..
the only one who will truly care, would be myself..
the one who will be living my life, would be only me..
the one who will live my life till the last breath, would be just myself..
if anything to be blamed, I can only fault myself with..
no one else, just myself..
and only me to love myself with..

I can only depend on myself for whatever happens, everything I do..
I have no one else in this world, except for myself..
only I will love myself..
I have only myself to love me..
no one..