Daily inspiration..#5..

Happiness is where we find it, but rarely where we seek it.
~ J. Petit Senn

Daily inspiration..#4..

The well lived life is one filled with authentic meaning.
~ Jocelyn Casey

Daily inspiration..#3..

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
~ Eleanor Roosevelt

Daily inspiration..#2..

Inspiration comes from every nook and cranny, from the mundane to the sublime. We need to be open and receptive to everything around us. I think you have to be ready when an idea comes to you. You’ve got to catch that cock-eyed genie by its tail. Creativity is seeing what everyone is seeing but thinking what no one else is thinking. Creative people have an obligation to go down the road less travelled. We can’t help that, I guess. We are made that way.

~ Tham Khai Meng, Ogilvy & Mather Worldwide Creative Director

Daily inspiration..#1..

There is more to life than increasing its speed.
~ Mahatma Gandhi

Angel of Mine...Eternal

Angel of Mine by Eternal


Oh, Angel


When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought I'd never find
Angel of mine  

I look at you (looking at you) looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you 'til the end of time
Angel of mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show

You came into my life sent from above
Better than a dream, such a perfect love
And I'll adore you 'til the end of time
Angel of mine

Woah woah, angel, yeah, oh

Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel, angel, of mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show

You came into my life (my life) sent from above
Better than a dream, such a perfect love, perfect love
And I'll adore you 'til the end of time
Angel, angel, of mine, of mine
Angel, oh angel, angel

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new
Every breath I take or vow that I make
I want to share it with you, share it with you

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought I'd never find
Angel of mine

You came into my life, sent from above, up above baby
Better than a dream, such a perfect love
You're such a perfect love
And I'll adore you 'til the end of time
Angel of mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show

I look at you, looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you 'til the end of time
Angel of mine

Broken soul..broken mind..

Broken wings
Broken will
Broken spirit
Broken soul

Broken determination
Broken passion
Broken mentality
Broken mind

Lost...dispirited...dispassionate...
Blue blue day...
Dark mind..
Nothing seems to go right..
No matter how much music plays in my ears..
However much things flew through my mind..
Things, feelings just go right through as though they are invisible..
I just look right through them..

Nothing seems to surprise me nor gets a genuine reaction out of me..
Wired mind, restless rationale..
Tries to keep myself busy..driving the body tired..to make it sleep and rest for another night's work..

Seems like I have not been on my own for a long time..many weekends..
Where is me? Where am I? Where the hell I am?
Everyday is all about others, all the time..
Frankly, I am tired of human, mankind..
Wish I can just cocoon myself and sleep for eternity..

~ M. Y. ~
September 24th 2013

Angel...Westlife...

Angel by Westlife

 
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
Storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escape one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
Some comfort here...

Wrong concept...idea...expectations..

Do I have the wrong concepts?
Incorrect ideas?
Immature expectations?
Suddenly, these thoughts came to me...

After a texted conversation with a dear friend..
I was mulling over the thoughts over..
over and over in my head,
even as I go through work, daily routines..

It struck a chord in me..
I could be looking things and thoughts in a different direction of things...
A childish immature way of directions..
Putting myself in misery for so long..

Simply put..
The wrong expectations of things..
Why am I expecting a certain outcome of the situation?
And following it, making things and forcing thoughts in this one direction..
Subjecting myself in endless pain and misery..

Why should I mull and make myself stupid over such immature way of thinking?
What the hell was I even thinking...
Made myself miserable and upset over no good reason..
When I should be concentrating on more important aspects in my life..
Damned fuckery shit of hell...
*laughs* at my own royal stupidity and immaturity of shit hole...

I am saying "Fuck shit to them! and stop wasting my time on these goddamned expectations!"
There...I think this is the end of it..
Whatever it is, it will be whatever it is..
So be it..
I am not going go there further anymore...
Just so not me...

Postrema huius exitum goddamned fuckery...

~ M. Y. ~
September 19th 2013

Thanks, dear friend!

Tired...

Seems like it always ended up like this, every single time.
Should I even bother to try anymore?
What's the point of trying it?
When it will end the same, every time...

It takes a lot to give it a try.
Feelings..
Energy..Effort..
Time..

Every time, I give it a chance..
I guess it was too late..
Maybe I said too much, too late..
Thought too much..
Overkills everything..

I am getting more and more tired each time..
Sometimes, I just want to give up it all..
It gets colder and colder each and every time..
With every hope each time, the dash and disappointment hits me harder..
I just want to hide myself in my cocoon, never to find my way out..

Am I really that complex?
That complicated to the point, where no one can understand the real me..
It seems so hard to find someone to understand and know the me..
Once I did, but it was gone along with the betrayal..

Trust comes with a heavy price to pay..
Love comes with a heavy burden to bear..
Night seems to have become longer and colder, over the days, months, years..
Time seems to have become eternity, endless..

Amortal endless..human has become..
Saddening..
seemingly bleak..
Like the sunset being swallowed into the twilight darkness..

It is a sad thing..
but I have to take it cool and calm and walk away..
No point forcing it further anymore..
Just not worth the effort to push it further, when thou just does not bother to try..

God, sometimes I think..maybe it is better for you to bring me home to your side..
Comparing to others in pain, sadness and poverty,
I may seem to be lucky..
but it does not seems to be in actual case..

Sadness and loneliness slowly eating away the soul out of me..
day in day out..
Emptiness replaces the core of me..
as time slowly ticks and trickles..

~ M. Y. ~
September 18th 2013


Sudden realization..an anniversary of an past today..
Be damned I am..
It had been 7 years since when I first tried..
I used to hate this day every year since 5 years ago..
Now, not so much...just sadness feels me, more than hate..
Sometimes, I wonder..is there something wrong with me that caused it to end..but no answer came to my mind..
Though, I am grateful for the 2 wonderful happy years..even now..

Alone..

Sense of finalization descends upon me..
This life of mine, I will live alone.
I have just myself to keep me company.
It is just easier that way.

It is too hard to find someone who knows and understands me.
I can be a great friend and jovial to everyone, but no one will get to know the real me.
Why? Because it takes a damn load of effort to do so.
And when I did try, you just gave up.
Bad timing? Bad situation? Maybe, I guess so.

Too much talks? Distrust at me? Too random talks? I require 200% of your attention?
All boil down to insecurity..Bad thing? Yes and No..why not?
Issuing me an ultimatum...in the end, you broke it yourself.
Just an effortless apology.
How nonsensical..and now, you avoid the entire issue.

I call you guys, bull...and a specie of gutless senseless creatures..
Maybe that's why you are still here today.

I am tired of dealing with all these goddamned and cowardice creatures.
I maybe alone or lonely..
At least, I am at peace, without all the ups and downs of feelings I got when I went through it all.


- M. Y. -
September 6th 2013